Today is the last day of mindless eating, activity and wasted time. The only person that can change me is ME. The only person that can accomplish the things that I want in life is me. Determination and follow through comes from within and lately, I’ve been quite sick of myself.

For those of you who don’t know my story, I suffer with depression and anxiety. Especially during my postpartum years. Depression can be very emotionally and mentally painful/exhausting. When things finally slow down for me and kids are napping, my motivation is at an all time low. To be honest, I usually lay in bed- look at a wall while the dishes stay dirty or laundry pile stays unfolded for how ever long the kids nap. Waiting for something to spark my interest. Waiting for something exciting to come along. It pains me to think of getting up and doing something.

An American, Christian author Joyce Meyer is a huge inspiration to me and I find that I relate to her quite well. She has a teaching path of positive thinking, positive speaking while bringing scripture in to back these truths. It also says in the bible “Rejoice in the Lord always: and again I say, Rejoice.” Philippians 4:4-8. Have you ever just SAT and thought about the things you are grateful for? Or thanked God for all of the things (there are so many) that He has done in your life? It seriously changes things.

With God on my side, I really do feel that I can be powerful in the every day, mundane, stay at home life. I can change my life and every day to be what I want them to be. To be powerful.

Starting tomorrow, I am starting a conscious eating, conscious lifestyle. Having the kids and making snacks… I sometimes get carried away with eating too much cheese, bread, crackers or macaroni and cheese. It’s not necessarily a problem, I’ve just noticed that I am not where I want to be with my health. I want my habits to be consistent and I desire to have my body, emotional and mental life reflect what I truly believe about myself. No dieting- just KNOWING what I am putting in my body.

I’ve learned a lot about myself since I’ve had kids. Especially during maternity leave- being in the thick of nap life. I’ve questioned what I value and where I put my priorities. You know what REALLY gets me stoked? A very special clothing item that I find at a thrift store that fits perfectly or I know its true price but score a big time deal. I’ve been realizing lately that I cannot steer from these things that are so important to me. I have close friends that value thrift shopping, sustainability and healthy eating/lifestyle as much as I do, so I find it very easy to share my passion with those close to me however; it’s always nice to refocus on what truly matters in your personal life.

I just bought another round of cloth diapers for little dude. I tried them with Bethany when she was a bit older and I really loved them- but Andy did not. Seeing the amount of diaper waste my household produces sickens me. Pray for me while I do laundry all the live long day while living life to the fullest as I consciously eat and work on my positive thinking.