I just read a title on an article that said “don’t write at first for anyone but yourself”. This has been getting me quite excited because I have always loved to write.

I wasn’t the best intellectual student in high school and I tried to get as many spare blocks, PE or band classes as possible so that I could avoid the hard stuff. I knew in my future life that I wouldn’t need any of that stuff and if I did, I would cross that bridge when I got there.

The one class that I seemed to glide through was English. Even during my post secondary studies, I got super excited when we were assigned research papers and essays. It sounds weird to me, but I thoroughly enjoyed and still enjoy writing. About anything. Even on my spare time at home when I lived with my parents, I did up a mock travel itinerary to Costa Rica because I loved research and writing.

All of my blog posts have been mostly for myself to get the jumble that’s going on in my head out on paper. I will be driving through town and think “I need to write about that!” It actually makes me kick myself a bit, because I had a brief career in Fort St John as a writer for the community magazine. My first day on the job, I got to interview a hip hop group performing at a pub that night. They were opening for a popular group and my heart was leaping. I’ve been searching for a hobby that I enjoy, and this truly is it. Writing. About anything. Currently, most posts are about parenting, balance and healthy minds.

I’m currently having a testing day with my princess toddler. Trying to keep boundaries strong while I single parent. Andy is on a shift rotation of 2 weeks currently and I am learning the transition with 2 kids. I have been doing a lot of positive self talk and telling myself how awesome I am when I get both kids to bed with little fuss and I’m still standing. This baby thing is super challenging, but this time around, I have decided not to dwell on the negative aspects of it. Instead, I am maintaining peace, joy and time for myself as much as I can.

I read a blog the other day that suggested in order to have a productive day- get up before the kids if possible. Lately, I have been trying to get up at least a half hour before the army so that I can have my coffee hot, read a bit of scripture and meditate (even for 5 minutes). I usually just say “help!” And I’ve also been praying specifically for God to meet my emotional and mental needs. I am a person who wears my emotions on my sleeve, and so far I literally have had feelings of joy, peace and happiness. Amidst the chaos, I still lose my temper and lack patience, but for the most part… I am joyful.

This time around, I made the choice to speak great things over myself and think great thoughts about myself. It’s so much easier to point out everything wrong in my life or about me, but I’ve also made the choice to be thankful for the things I do have and can do.

Be gentle with yourself and let’s start speaking great things into our soul!