I just don’t know if this is a good time to write because things are very uninteresting in my life. I finally muster up enough motivation to set my alarm for an early wake up to get the work out done before the kids are up and Bethany has a bad dream AND pees the bed at different times throughout the night. Giving me less than 4 hours of sleep. It’s these little set backs that beat me down to a pulp because there are SO many little set backs daily being at home with the minions. Like putting things into the garbage bin under the sink, but the bag is folded over so all of the slop goes down the inside of the garbage can. Or I’m wiping the counter and then I knock over the full glass of milk that Bethany asked for but didn’t drink. You know what I’m talking about? These things that nit pick their way to my inner being. Dressing and putting shoes on a toddler, siblings fighting… UGGH!

The thought of selling Travel has been quite an excitement within all of this, but the time is very limited. Even now- both kids are napping and it would be a great time to study for my course/do some advertising to get another client but I’m SPENT!! I just had a hot bath and now chilling. I think that the mindset in my age group is that success and finances need to come quick but as I walked into church the other morning, I had a conversation with a friends Mom and she concluded with “don’t expect it to be a quick build”. It totally hit me! She was SOO right. I’ve been pondering that ever since.

I haven’t been making money to sustain the family nor do I have enough clients to make it feasible for me to make this a full time gig yet, BUT it excites me! Honestly, if something doesn’t work instantly for me, I tend to MOVE ON. NEXT. I’ve always been like that… but maybe this time, this excitement is real and I’ve finally found something worth holding onto? I don’t have the answer yet, because I’m very consumed with the kids at home. All I know is that I am passionate about selling travel because I am passionate about traveling. It is honestly the only thing I think about when I have time alone. Experiencing different places, people, climates and sounds. Turn on House Hunters International all the day long and I will be happy. They always say “If you do something you love, than you will never work a day in your life”. I think that it is true.

I do desire for this to one day be a full time career for me but I need to learn to let it grow slowly. The seed has been planted in my path and I am working on watering it. Let’s see where it takes me! If you do decide to use me as a Travel Agent, my quotes realistically take 2-3 days since I only have 1/2 hour here and there to do research and I am still new to the industry. Right now, I am a bit uncomfortable with life. Financially we are staying afloat, mentally I am still here but not fired up. Through this, I want to change things to make it comfortable again but I feel God reminding me “What is in front of you?” Change what you can, but accept what cannot be changed and learn from it.